A Christmas Reality

Preface: I want to sponsor 3 families/children in the Northern Nevada area for the holidays. I will go out and get them food, clothes or toys. Whichever is needed most. My goal is $450. That’s $150 per family. All money goes to them. If I go past the goal I will sponsor additional families or…

Thankful Year

I want to start this with all holidays that I celebrate are evil and based on some deep rooted form of capitalism. So I celebrate them for the reasons that make me happy and appreciative of what my values are. Now that we got the wokeness out of the way it’s time for the lion…

Wizard

Do you believe in magic? I believe in moments. I believe in substance. I believe the journey that makes us who we are is just as important as the destination in the end. Who we are and what we went through to get there. I believe you can drown in a abundance of emotions, but…

Hypotheticals of a Windowsill

Send a prayer and talk to the stars for you. That’s a lively combination. We could both live in the sky. If we believe our dreams can come true. What do people believe in anymore? How does this world test your faith? Can you smell the rain? Can you see the difference in the snow?…

Small Moments Of Clarity

I don’t think some of my friends support me enough….. They aren’t obligated to. I just view all of this more as a painting than a photograph. I sincerely hope you understand the dynamics of that. I’m a complex man with a lot of simple beliefs. I divulge all my lies and write my truths….

Fragmented

I never say I’m depressed, have bipolar disorder, anxiety, a spectrum of autism, or a self harmer because those are words I take too seriously to throw around trivially. Those are words that should be used with a purpose. Sometimes we forget the power that words hold. Sometimes we forget that if we overuse words…

Life is Beautiful

This Summer especially this past month it has been easy to find me. I’m where the music is Loud and the humans are beautiful. My destination has been ever changing but the ones who I care for always know where I’m at. All these shared locations. All these pick up spots. All the places we…

)’( 2018: Total Sidebar

I lost my voice talking to the universe and screaming at my friends how much I love them. I am the man way up high somewhere over the rainbow that you heard of once in a lullaby. There’s no place like home… There’s no place like home… There’s no place like this where I felt…

Messages from the City

Realizing it was your fault was great, but you can’t fix all your mistakes. You can grow with each experience in hopes to be better. In hopes that next there will truly be a better understanding. Sometimes the most brief thing can have immense impact on your outcome. No one owes you shit. -Don’t feel…

Passion>Fear

I have to hold myself and those around me accountable. It is who I am as a person and it is my duty as a man. The sensitivity of the male ego will always be astounding. This is not me saying I am immune to it because that I am not. My pride has blocked…

Triggered

I would do this even if I was talking to myself into the infinite universe and it seemed vast darkness was all there would ever be. I got you by my side and thats beautiful. You bring light. Words are like shooting stars they help me wish for better things. There’s a certain peace that…

Binge Reading

She said… I don’t even know how to explain what you do to me She spoke how… Just because you saw me when I was fragile I don’t want you to think that I’m weak She talked about how… I have a lust for death because I fell in love with my own mortality She…