Small Moments Of Clarity

I don’t think some of my friends support me enough….. They aren’t obligated to. I just view all of this more as a painting than a photograph. I sincerely hope you understand the dynamics of that. I’m a complex man with a lot of simple beliefs. I divulge all my lies and write my truths….

Fragmented

I never say I’m depressed, have bipolar disorder, anxiety, a spectrum of autism, or a self harmer because those are words I take too seriously to throw around trivially. Those are words that should be used with a purpose. Sometimes we forget the power that words hold. Sometimes we forget that if we overuse words…

Life is Beautiful

This Summer especially this past month it has been easy to find me. I’m where the music is Loud and the humans are beautiful. My destination has been ever changing but the ones who I care for always know where I’m at. All these shared locations. All these pick up spots. All the places we…

)’( 2018: Total Sidebar

I lost my voice talking to the universe and screaming at my friends how much I love them. I am the man way up high somewhere over the rainbow that you heard of once in a lullaby. There’s no place like home… There’s no place like home… There’s no place like this where I felt…

Messages from the City

Realizing it was your fault was great, but you can’t fix all your mistakes. You can grow with each experience in hopes to be better. In hopes that next there will truly be a better understanding. Sometimes the most brief thing can have immense impact on your outcome. No one owes you shit. -Don’t feel…

Passion>Fear

I have to hold myself and those around me accountable. It is who I am as a person and it is my duty as a man. The sensitivity of the male ego will always be astounding. This is not me saying I am immune to it because that I am not. My pride has blocked…

Triggered

I would do this even if I was talking to myself into the infinite universe and it seemed vast darkness was all there would ever be. I got you by my side and thats beautiful. You bring light. Words are like shooting stars they help me wish for better things. There’s a certain peace that…

Binge Reading

She said… I don’t even know how to explain what you do to me She spoke how… Just because you saw me when I was fragile I don’t want you to think that I’m weak She talked about how… I have a lust for death because I fell in love with my own mortality She…

Destination Known

I don’t have an addictive personality I have an obsessive personality. If you’re like me after reading this; you will understand. If you are unlike me, that is okay. You will see an aspect of life through a different perspective. There is nothing in this world I need in a hostile way. I can quit…

Papa, Who Cares?

How the fuck you leave a black boy in the hands of America? Tough as diamonds but they treat us like everyday stones to be tossed from a glass house because we came from broken homes. Made the streets my home. Made this zoo into a jungle. Our stomachs would grumble. We heard gunshots at…

Thanos Bets

This is inspired by talks at the bar with Alanna. Hopes that Banks never has financial hardship and everyone I care about doesn’t have to be the lead singer in order to find Nirvana. This is inspired with hopes of being able to afford my mother going to therapy. Inspired by visions of you in…

A Fools Goodbye

And I hope I never play the fool again but there was so much about you to be foolish for. Lately closure is coming in every direction, I’m learning to deal with the compass telling me it’s time to move on. I wanted to be here with you but you are no where near me….