2020: The Foundation

NONE of this is real.

All of it will fade.

We are all nothing.

We all want to mean something.

We all want to become something.

We all want to be considered special to someone.

Yet here we are…

Yet here we are all full of insecurities and doubts. Standing in rooms full of thoughts and thinking we are the only ones that don’t have it all figured out.

Yet here we are in a room full of people hesitant to speak some form of anything that may resemble our truth.

Yet here we are afraid to say what we may read aloud even though we feel it now more than ever. Even though we feel it more than any of those empty words being recited to us.

I have a tradition of some sort for almost every major holiday. When it comes to New Years, the tradition is for the 1st. On January 1st I gather everyone who I celebrated with and we circle up. I get a bottle of alcohol, we all go around take a shot and say one of our resolutions for the upcoming year. It’s could be something small and simple or cathedral like and complex. The point is to say it out loud amongst good energy. Too often we keep our battles and what we want our victories to be to ourselves. It could be doubt, it could be fear, embarrassment or a litany of things as to why we don’t say what we want from life or what we need from those in our lives.

This year feels different to me. So far I think it may be because this year is coupled with the start of a new decade. It’s feels as if this is more than a relationship with self. It feels as if my goals are vows and I’m married to this upcoming period of time in my life. I’m fully committed to all that this may bring.

I’ve never embraced a new decade before. It’s never felt monumental or purposeful to me. This year is also a leap year which just makes it factual that you have time to accomplish more. Every time I speak of this year I do it in a way that also breathes life into this decade. Everything I want to accomplish this year I want to bring with me for the next 10 years. Everyone around me I want in my life for the next 10 years and I will do my part to water those relationships. I can’t control time and space but I can master intent. I can manipulate my thoughts in order to cement the intangibles around me.

I can make sure you know I’m with you and not against you. I don’t want anyone around me having fear of telling me all the great things they want to accomplish or have anxiety of telling me their failures. This is a foundation year that will define the rest of my life. That doesn’t mean there won’t be mistakes, pain, setbacks, failures or a variety of other negative toned things. I am human and I surround myself with humans. All that comes with trying to figure it out. We can hold the ones we love accountable without holding everything against them.

We can hold the ones we love accountable without holding everything against them.

I don’t want anymore animosity. I don’t want you to ever doubt I’m rooting for you. Even if you’re doing better than me. I haven’t had a bad year in a number of years and I don’t want to ever have one again. I don’t want you to ever have one again. I like looking around and seeing a path of happiness in every direction. I want to walk in confidence and run in prosperity. Cups may overflow but that doesn’t mean you drown; it means you swim better. If you are fortunate enough it means you captain ships and maneuver vessels. I believe in you because you were vulnerable enough to let me know what you need to believe in yourself.

I believe in you more than I believe in any storm.

I am not yet the builder of ladders but I hope right now I can be a step in helping your current journey.

“ I’m going to get a top score on the LSAT & get into my law school of choice. I’m going to give myself and my family everything I want ”

“ 2019 was a year where I lost myself trying to fit into a box that wasn’t for me. This year is all about regaining my freedom and reigniting passion. I’m focusing on myself and my needs and will be doing so by diving head first into what I love. I foresee a lot of yoga, traveling, loving, and living. Sounds cliche, but damn, what a year of lacking on yourself can do. Cheers to shaking up the world again hope you have a wonderful Christmas “

“ I feel like this upcoming year isn’t going to be so much on trying to change things for myself. And not because I’m perfect, far from it. I want to make 2020 about going to see places, meet people, and make memories, instead of trying to make myself “look” a certain way. I want 2020 to be the year of exploring ”

“ Resolution/goal for 2020: move from Reno, change the scenery, build something different but great and treat myself “

“ I want to start my small business and take stress away from my mother “

“ I usually don’t do a New Years resolution because I think there’s no point to it. But, This coming year I’m giving it a shot. My New Years resolution is to love myself more. Which means eating healthier and working out. I want to love myself so that I stop being such a toxic person to other. It’s true what they say, can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. “

“ I usually don’t do a New Years resolution because I think there’s no point to it. But, This coming year I’m giving it a shot. My New Years resolution is to love myself more. Which means eating healthier and working out. I want to love myself so that I stop being such a toxic person to other. It’s true what they say, can’t love others if you don’t love yourself. “

“ Also another resolution I have for the decade…to be a better mother to my children. I get so caught up with working a full day and chores after work that I don’t make time for my babies “

“ New Years resolutions 2020: say yes to more-get out of my comfort zone. Be the absolute best version of myself for myself and for the people I love. Work on my mental health. Volunteer and put my time into things that will benefit not only myself, but others as wells “

“ Acceptance “

Is it the when, the why, or the how that’s most important to you?

When it’s done?

Why it’s done?

How it’s done?

How do value that in which has no measurable value? The journey is priceless.

Whatever last year may have been do more with it this year. Whichever you may have defined last decade. Mold and shape this one to be everything you need. I’m rooting for you and if you ever need a reminder just message me.

It takes so much to really achieve what we want out of life, but we get so caught up in these moments that get us down. We get wrapped up in a blanket of negative emotions forgetting about the warmth. Forgetting that we are light for so many people in their times of dark. Don’t be afraid to let go of what no longer serves you. We hold onto ideas and memories that no longer compliment our current level of energy. Remember in the fog of lies to always see your lighthouse of truth. On the bad days and down years, never doubt who you are.

In the end everything falls apart, I mean the very end. The end of all we know and hope to understand. When that end comes everything will fall apart. The concept of time and those who defined it will crumble. Until then let’s build beautifully to the sky as if we believe we can reach heaven. Build your physical, build your spirit, build your relationships. Be happy for others as if their success is not a competition to yours. All these trails can be mountains. Water all that is around you and moisturize your skin. Be sincere in the good. Reflect properly on the bad. When you are in the middle appreciate the balance.

I’m rooting for you. I’m roaring for you.

One Comment Add yours

  1. robynbird says:

    What a beautiful post. Thank you for sharing your thoughts!

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