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I started writing down my goals and they read like poems

I hummed my intentions for you and they sounded like love songs

I hear all your rumors

I know all your secrets

If you can live with your lies

I’ll gladly die with my truth

You can’t look in the mirror

So tell me who scared you?

I carry no knives

I eat with my hands

I never been behind

So tell me who stabbed you?

I’ve been thinking bout life as I try to figure out life

I’ve been thinking bout life as I try to figure out life and all I gathered is we all fuck up sometimes

I hold that in my hands as if it’s the world

I be talking Troy like the future is here and now

I go to the groupchat they tell me chill out

Tonight we could’ve saved the world but instead we just got drunk and high

Still I don’t wanna come down

I feel bad for anyone who has never went crazy

I feel bad for anyone who hasn’t said or heard “I love you” lately

I yell that shit to the ones that I’m infatuated with like we strangers in a bar and they can’t hear me

Who told you to act this way?

What happened to you as a kid that now there always has to be someone you have to hate?

You haven’t learned to process trauma, so instead just reflect on your day

You use my ears as therapy

How the fuck am I supposed to walk away?

Just because you let me down doesn’t mean down the line I won’t be by your side

I would say vice versa but these verses are just lined with vices

Tonight we could’ve saved the world but instead we just got drunk and high

The walls of my mind is covered in art Picasso’d by day dreams

My home is covered in plants not kept alive by me

But I still breathe fresh air as if I planted the seeds

Covered in scars but I carry no knives

I rather die with secrets than live with lies

We could talk about ancestors but that’s just more time

Heaven or Hell for eternity depending on family trees

Oh you want to be happy?

I just wanna be free…

One Comment Add yours

  1. Tierra Dennis says:

    Love this one. Deep in so many levels.

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